I have to admit, with all the support of people around me, I feel such a strong sense of peace, almost like I am surrounded by clouds that will carry me through this process. It could also be the months leading up to this of people who have spent time with me answering questions, giving me suggestions and just being a friend as I cry on their shoulders processing all the different emotions I have experienced. After all 2 months ago I had no idea I would be at this point.
It all started with a little nudge from above when I felt this prompting saying to me, "It's time." I thought to myself 'Time for what?' Almost as though I was having a conversation with someone I heard the answer, "It's time for you to get your tummy tuck surgery. You will be having the surgery by the end of the year." I thought to myself, 'That's impossible. I don't have the money, no insurance nor know of a doctor that I would go to.' I reached out to a friend of mine who I knew had had the surgery years ago and she encouraged me to meet with her doctor so she made the appointment and away we went. Meanwhile, two other friends had given me a referral to Dr. Kevin Rose so I called and scheduled a consultation with him for a week later. Between the two surgeons, I felt almost compelled to work with Dr. Kevin Rose. From the minute I stepped into the office, I had an incredibly warm feeling. The staff was so kind and friendly and the nurse seemed to be genuinely concerned for my own personal well being which meant a lot to me. I remember telling my mother who joined me on my appointment, "I just feel so good about Dr. Rose."
I knew I needed to raise the money in order for me to have the surgery so I set up a site for people to donate. Now, let me tell you honestly, I am not the type of person to ask for help, or at least I haven't been most of my life. It just is difficult but I knew this was the only way this surgery would happen is if I could get the help of others. I am so grateful for the many people who have donated because I wouldn't be typing up this blog if they hadn't stepped in and willing to help.
So here I am, the night before the surgery, having documented a lot of the last couple of weeks of emotional rollercoaster on Facebook Live and feeling more ready than I ever thought possible. The peace I feel is indescribable and I know it's because of the many of you who are praying for me.